I had a chat with a friend, yesterday.

We talked about the ordinary normal human doings. How are you? I said, I'm fine. How's school? I said, boring as fuck. But as we keept on talking, he mentioned something very familiar with me and animating. He talked about he didn't know what to do in his life, at the age 45 with wife and two kids. He feelt these. Have to do objectives. Have to go to work, have to exercise and workout, have to be there for his family.

Besides have to go to school, I got no haves to do. Except, one more.

Since 2010, I feelt that feeling for the first time when I started on my I can/can't open the door 2. I HAVE TO FINSH THIS! I must. I started it, I gotta end it. That fucking ruined my life in many ways. I took this free time thing way too seriously. It's suppose to be for fun but instead it feelt like work. So I'm going to cool down for a year or few. Will maybe return once I got a fancy job while living in a decent enough apartment. Though I might make a small part for ParadigMadness 2 if there even will be one. Due to everyone enjoying it so much (reasons I do not understand). Might finish my delayed MD13 movie too. And maybe, just a slight maybe. Do some really, really short little Madness comedy clip for the flash portal. Or perhaps this will all change depending on what happens in the future. I don't know.

~Delamortes | Tobias

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Djjaner 2014-03-12 18:29:45

http://www.newgrounds.com/dump/item/45e14cd0bd952fcb913a79bb4461c05c YEAH!!! ICCOTD2 good old awesome preview..

GabrielBarsch 2014-03-12 18:31:37

good old times V
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Kelzad 2014-03-12 18:36:42

It's fine man. We can wait :v

zmatrix 2014-03-12 20:06:18

Your name is Tobias?

VicariousE 2014-03-13 00:16:43

Do it if it feels good. Take a break for a while, and you'll come back stronger, better, because you expect more from your 'work'. Nothing beats the high of a completed thing!

Crazymonkey154 2014-03-13 00:30:56

We look forward to whatever you might produce

Zapchon 2014-03-13 02:08:21

Take a break if you need to

1999Elias 2014-03-13 02:46:24

@GabrielBarsch remember? That's exactly what I felt... ...no objectives in my life.

kkots 2014-03-13 09:47:04

Well, this goes into the "meaning of life" question and religion/philosophy.
If you don't like animating, then find a way to animate easier or a point of view from which you enjoy it more. Think about the many, many people who are going to watch your animation and vote 5, think about the front page, winning the Madness Day prize, the eternal glory, etc.
Maybe you should try to do something else, or simply wait... and train your skills at drawing, programming, composing, playing instruments, riding skates, whatever you feel like.
Just do not waste your time on talking with random people about nothing and being depressed.

YeOldeApple 2014-03-13 16:23:33

You don't have to get anything done, Tobias. You were told by yourself to get something done, yet you are in complete control over whether or not you want to make any progress, or completely step down from your work all together.

We're not waiting on you for anything really. When and if your projects get finished will be seen as a great contribution, not a delayed production. (In my eyes at least.)

Regardless of what anyone else thinks, get your priorities finished first, then get your means of entertainment out of the way.

CiviLies 2014-03-13 18:53:34

Yeah, man...I don't know really know what I'm doing in life, either. I know I -have- to finish community college because I -have- to transfer to a larger university because I -have- to graduate from one to get a good job which I -have- to -have- in order to survive. Ugh...

I don't see where my life is going or where I'm going to end up. I just see a vague outline of goals I know my family and society expects me to accomplish. I mean, it's not that I DON'T want to graduate from a four year university, I just don't really see the point, since, as I said earlier, I don't really see where my life is headed, ya know?

And I'm not trying to turn attention on this post from you to myself, but it seems like you, your friend, and I are all stuck in similar situations. We may be in different points in life, but it sounds to me like the three of us are chained by stagnation to our respective points. It can be depressing. I'm not exactly sure if this is what you or your friend are going through, but it kinda sounds like it. Maybe it's just me. I'm sure we can all agree, though, that it's just a shame when the moments and passions that we should be enjoying most in life seem to dry up--like a raisin in the sun.

Well, in any case, good luck to you and your friend. Sorry for the paragraphs of ranting, haha. Hope you're able to get it all sorted out, though.

DriftLV1 2014-03-13 21:30:42

I feel the same way. When I'm actually enjoying a project I have no problem devoting most of my free time to doing it. But when I start getting bored of it, and I force myself to do it, it just eats away at me, and instead of enjoying my time, I'm just forcing myself to abandon my otherwise free time.

Well, I hope things work out great for you, and you return with an assortment of awesome animations!

SileNt-Sam 2014-03-14 05:08:31

yeah everyone needs to take a break from time to time , we'll be here for you when you're back :)

Doodlepantz 2014-03-17 12:25:50

Have you considered just handing it off to someone else? Nobody else has quite the same style as you, but if it's causing you this much trouble then it might be better to just wash your hands of the whole mess. There's no point in putting so much work into something that's affecting you negatively in real life.